There are conversions that arise over years or stages of life. However, Lucía Pastor, Lupa (Madrid, 1999), can put date and time “to my encounter with God. On the night of October 16, 2021, before an imposition of hands, I received the fullness of feeling loved.”, he assures Omnes.
His conversion is well known in the Effetá environment. When asked about Lupa, the conversation came easily on a Friday afternoon. The young woman dissected her perceptions with even more precision than that of St. Luke in recounting the conversion of St. Paul in the Acts of the Apostles.
“Beloved daughter of God.”
Lupa states: “It was as if a thread of light illuminated my whole being, from the top of my head to the soles of my feet with a strong burning in my chest. It was as if someone literally entered inside me and emptied me of all pain, fear, anguish, dizziness and sadness. And instead, it filled me with hope, forgiveness, light, peace and infinite love. An inner but physical transformation, in which I could feel myself psychically perceiving how the Lord was transforming me.”.
“It's impossible to put into words what I felt at that moment.”, adds Lucía Pastor. “I recognized Him as Father, and I felt for the first time, beloved daughter of God. It was undoubtedly the happiest day of my life.”.
“I had a longing of the heart, but I didn't know how to pray the Lord's Prayer.”
Right after his conversion, Lupa went to live in Rome, “....“a super nice experience. I always said that the Lord had abandoned me and taken me away from all my family, but in reality he had sent me to the city with the most churches per square meter. The guy upstairs knew what he was doing.”he assures.
And we return to conversion, the subject of our conversation. Was there a prolegomenon, or was it all at once? “Well, it was like falling off the horse. I've always had like a huge thirst for what I saw in some people, which was full happiness.”.
“It is true that I had a search for happiness, for joy, for full love, but I was neither aware that this came from God, nor that I needed it. It was simply a longing of the heart.”, he adds. Like St. Augustine? “Yes, that's right. My conversion was in Effetá, it is true that there I put a name to what I could be looking for, because maybe it is faith that I want. But it was not intentional or something I was looking for, it was completely a fall from the horse.".
"To get an idea, I did not know the Lord's Prayer. It is true that my mother had the habit, before going to sleep, of praying to the Child Jesus, and I had a Virgin in my room, but beyond that, I don't remember. God was not present in my life. Or rather, He was, but I didn't see Him.”.
From sentiment to training
“And then it is true that as a result of my conversion, I found my place in Hakuna very much, because as I had no theological basis, it was through feeling that I came to know God.”, acknowledges Lupa.“Then I found in Hakuna that continuity, and there began my more theological formation, to know the Bible, the life of God...”.
“Now, my faith balance is much more level, it's not so much feeling and heart, but I have much more knowledge and formation, from the head, I involve a lot of service and dealing with others. Today, it is a matter of continuing to build. And not forgetting what I live for. I always say three things. One, I live to give glory to God. Two, to give importance to what is important, and three, to live in truth. And I think all three mean the same thing.”.
“At the community level, I'm still looking for where my place is, and nothing is happening.”, acknowledges Lupa. “I am in some Schoenstatt workshops, I read a lot about the Jesuits, I have had a lot of contact with people from Opus, I am learning from all sides, and the Lord will take me where he has to take me.”.
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